Songs

An ode to toxic relationships.

You got me twisted up all over you
Can’t see straight this fog got me confused
Clouds over my eyes I can’t get through
I’m not over you

Hey, does it feel good living in my brain?
Can’t evict you boy got me insane
You walked out my life nothing’s the same
And it’s such a shame

You look at me I turn to stone
I wish I could leave you alone
Medusa ain’t got shit on you
Petrify me, I can’t move

I tell myself that this is right
Your toxic ass ain’t worth the fight
I keep on crawling back I know
God I need the antidote

For You, you’re no good for me
But here I am still thinking of you
I can’t let you be
And I can’t seem to break free from you

I, I gotta get myself put back together,
should be used to all this stormy weather
From all the years you pissed on my parade
And it’s such a shame

It’s such a shame

How long was it for me to break?
Trusting you was my mistake
This stupid love I need to shake
Always knew you were a snake

I tell myself that this is right
Your toxic ass ain’t worth the fight
I keep on crawling back I know
God I need the antidote

You, you’re no good for me
But here I am still thinking of you
I can’t let you be
And I can’t seem to break free from you

I took a breath and I had to wake myself
Someone slap my face, damn I need help
keep on thinking about the way you felt
How you held me, kissed me, played me

Eviction notice to my brain
Cleanse my senses of your name

I’m done with you,
I’m moving on
but damn I do still crave

For you,
You’re no good for me
Here I am not thinking of you
I can’t let you be

But watch me now I’m breaking free from you

Breaking free

When the love so good your eyes get that half lidded high feel.

I’m falling up into the sky
That’s how it feels
When I’m with you I swear I’m high

Hold the smoke inside my chest
You’re my devil’s cigarette
Let me take a drag deep inside
Baby you make me feel alive

Body melting to jelly
Girl what have you done to me
Rainbows pouring out of my eyes
Twisted baby it’s no surprise

I’m soaring free above the trees
I took a hit
Of you and baby I’m hooked, I’m weak

Hey
You’re the crutch that I’m missing
That something in my lungs
That something I been sipping
Baby you are everything that I could need
One puff of you melt away anxiety

You got me faded baby

I’m reachin’ for nirvana
And when I reach out it’s just colder
To high for me to fall down
And it’s too late for you to call now
And I’m just movin’ on
I’m free

Free falling up into the sky
That’s how it feels
When I’m with you baby I swear I’m high, baby

Sunlight shines in through the blinds
Shadows on the wall
Say something
Wish I could bathe in your mind
You make me see the world like never seen before

That Fuck You you’ve always wanted to that greedy, cheating ex.

No Forgiveness

Three breaths
Two lips
One look
That’s all it took

No words
No thoughts
Can’t look
Goddamn I’m shook

You wanted more babe
I guess you meant it
You went to get that for you

There wasn’t enough
I guess to keep you
No matter what shit I did

I saw you creeping
Guess fuck my feelings
It was always about yours

I thought you told me
There was a future
I guess that future’s with her

We once saw eye to eye
And now we say goodbye
You won’t hear from me again

No forgiveness
No honesty
Where were you baby?

No forgiveness
You promised me
You didn’t mean it

Forgive me babe, didn’t mean to start it
I guess that’s enough for your cold cold heart

No forgiveness
You made your bed
I’m sorry baby
But I’m not sorry

Bent over backwards
Just call me Neo
And now I dodge bullets too

I should’ve seen it
Come from a thousand miles
I guess that’s blue pills for you

Good riddance baby
Do you feel better?
I’m wishing you all the best

This is your MO
I hope she knows that
You love to jump to the next

You chose your life babe
And now I’m choosing mine
I should’ve done that years ago

No forgiveness
No honesty
Where were you baby?

No forgiveness
You promised me
You didn’t mean it

Forgive me babe, swear it all was nothing
Well I guess that’s enough that you did say something

No forgiveness
You made your bed
I’m sorry baby
I’m not sorry

Sometimes, when I lay myself to sleep,
I think of all things that get the best of me
Sometimes, I can see the brighter roads ahead
when you’re layin with me in my bed

I could see it in your eyes,
oh baby to our surprise,
We’ve fallen,
Oh honey we’re in deep

Baby, when you put your hands on me,
You make my mind go blank
It’s like your name’s Xanax

Then you’re looking at me, eyes on fire
you set my soul alight
Let it burn

Steady, steady breathing
Heavy, head is spinning
Got me, Got me heated
Just let go

I wanna taste you
Baby I crave you
I wanna take you, ah

I wanna taste you
Baby I crave you
I’m gonna take you

And I’m never gonna stop till you tell me stop baby

You lay me down and I don’t know how to control myself

Combined, we’re the perfect recipe
the sweetness of your kiss and salty skin

Autobiography of a 21-year-old aspiring actress’ move to Hollywood.

Riding down on Lankershim Blvd
Stars in her eyes
Got a scrape on both her knees
Chasing dreams, stumbling blind

Trash bag for a suitcase
21, no time to waste
Big plans but small, small means

Palm trees in her rear view
Sunset shining pink too
The future’s in her reach

Hazy mountains, bright lights
Cheap ass sangria, late nights
Pupils bigger than her plans

Then reality kicks in
Baby I’m so sorry
That you had to learn this way

Riding down on Lankershim Blvd
Stars in her eyes
Got a scrape on both her knees
Chasing dreams, stumbling blind

Touched the flame
Drawn to the lights, baby
I don’t know what I can say
It’s crazy the things you’d do but

Then reality kicks in
Baby, I’m so sorry
That you had to learn this way

Then reality kicks in
Kicks you in the dick
Baby girl, you know what they say

Move on
Just move on
Move on
Just move on

Things to remember when it gets hard to breathe.

Slow down, what’s the hurry?
All we need is here and now
Breathe in, don’t worry baby
We don’t need to pace the crowd

Ignore the buzzing in your hand
Switch off the noise in demand
No, no plans today
Just sunshine

Let the music play
Relax your mind

Hit the pause button baby
You can’t hit the replay
You miss everything if you don’t slow down
Spiral staircases leads to nowhere
But bad habits
Take a breath and plant your feet on solid ground

Breathe out, slow your roll babe
Take a moment, look around
Go at the pace you want to
Your life is your life be proud

Hit the pause button baby
You can’t hit the replay
You kiss everything if you don’t slow down
Spiral staircase leads to nowhere
But bad habits

Take a breath and plant your feet on solid ground

Breathe, breathe, breathe.